Drowning by Margaret McHeyzer
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Drowning was very personal for me, as someone who struggled with cutting throughout my life. The struggle shown for Ivy is a terribly accurate account. Margaret McHeyzer shined light on this in the most beautiful way. I feel for Ivy. I was screaming at her a few times. Screaming ‘it’s ok’, yet also cringing from the struggle. Stay strong. It’s more than two words for some, it’s a mantra for some. I cried, I yelled, I broke. I just wanted to take Ivy in my arms and tell her it does get better. It’s hard work but it does get better. This book will suck every emotion from you. It will leave you completely opened and raw. Make you feel as if you’re broken too. Until we see the light. Until Ivy shows us how not to win the battle, but how to win the war.
Drowning is an emotional ride that I hope opens someone’s eyes and let’s them get help. Ivy and Tobias both have demons. They recognize the demons in each other’s eyes and fall for each other at the tender age of 18. Both of them struggle through embarrassment and lies. Both come through it. This is a story of strife, heartbreak, and mental illness. It’s also a story of hope and surviving and staying strong.
I loved every piece of this book. I loved the message and I also loved having someone speak out on cutting and open some eyes on it. I honestly think I’d have made my own mother read this if it was around when I started cutting. The shame and embarrassment lead to hope and strength. Ivy and Tobias fought their demons hard and came out stronger.
because I find solace in it.
because it helps calm my frantic mind.
because the voices inside my head tell me to.
because this is the only way I know how to handle life.